Wednesday, January 20, 2010

not as crazy as i thought

Well, after a dr visit and a boost on my mg of anti-depressants, and some emergency klonopin i am relieved that i can say that i don't think people can read what is going on in my head and i don't think there are hidden cameras everywhere!! that makes me happy.
I still hate being touched, especially by strangers but not so much by my own family anymore.
General anxiety is down. Had some juice earlier and feel like today will be productive!, I guess we will see about that.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Yummy Juice

So now after how many months of self loathing/ hating I have started anew. It is going quite well so far, i must say. Since the 5th i have been juicing (and no i don't mean steroids). I got a juicer for christmas and decided to go for it.
Of course i was a little worried about failing as i always do at theese sort of things but i haven't yet. I get up have some juice with some dates and oatmeal and juice with a small lucnh juice for snack juice with a lite dinner! I am always full. The person i spoke to about this said to drink juice six times a day with 3 small small meals and snack on nuts and veggies all day.
No can do. I'm way too full as it is! Thank god!!!!
I haven't eaten any CRAPPY food (as in bad for me and my weight) since the 5th