Again, feel like a lost puppy. I don't celebrate "holidays" we have never done traditional thanksgiving nor traditional christmas.  I never remember believing in Santa, all my years as a young child were spent this time of year catering to others. Not a bad thing, just skewed my belief in Santa, and the whole christmas is  a magical time, deal.
I have told my children there is no santa, this holiday is a joke, yet every year i feel compelled to get them gifts.  As if i would be a failure as a parent to not do so. I tell them they are late solstice gifts. I still feel like a failure.